Even though we don't talk anymore, I'm kind of sad that we don't. This is what I wanted... For him to not talk to me anymore. I miss him, being with him. Talking to him. The more alone time I have (which is all the time), the more memories start to come back. From talking on msn, to the phone every single night for almost three years. Being in Edward's Garden, watching every movie out in theaters, loafting at STC... It's hard. It's hard to be happy because he is still the love of my life but I'm not his anymore. I can see how happy he is now when he's with his friends and I don't want to ruin that for him. For that, I am happy for him and his new life. I am grateful for the years we spent together and it will be cherished, always. I am happy that I met someone like him (the him 3 years ago) but now I'm just grateful for my family and friends who have been there for me. Who has helped me in my process of grief and now healing and I couldn't have done it without their love and support. The only one good thing I got from this experience is the realization of who will always be there for me in the end and I am very blessed.
Goodbye 299, Thank you for the memories. I had a blast. ;)
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