Goodbye, Past (Breakup Rants #3)

So many things have happened lately, I don't know where to start. First off, I think this will be another breakup rant again just because I have so much on my mind. I don't get why ex-boyfriends/girlfriends still try to talk to you when they are the ones who left you, who gave up on you. You ever wonder if it's only because they need love or they're just using you. You let them back in your life thinking they'd actually care about you but they just... Don't. Like I said before, I gave it my all in this relationship so it's harder to just be suddenly dropped when you still love them with all your heart... No matter how much they hurt you. You still want to be with them even though they don't care about you but they make you happy when you're with them. I guess you can't make their heart beat something it won't. I hope this will be my last breakup rant of the year because now I have to let go for something better.

"I don't know which I would rather believe... that you never did care or that you eventually stopped."

Twitter Stalker (Breakup Rants #2)

You know what sucks? When your ex does things you always wanted to do with them when you were together. It's like a knife through the heart to realize he wasn't planning to stay all along. All the promises he made, fake. All the sacrifices you made for them, useless. Having Twitter is definitely not a good idea after a breakup. Even if you're not following them, you still have their names saved in the search bar. It fucking sucks to feel jipped especially for him being a major part of my life for almost 3 years. It's been 6 months and I am over him but the fact I gave him my all, heart and trust and being treated this way in the end is something that hurts so much.

Why This Kolaveri Di?

This is an awesome song! I love brown music and their culture, I wish Filipinos had cool songs like these... Or at least be original.

I Want Some Vanilla Ice!

Hello there, sexuals! I am so effing hungover right now and I feel I just want to type how I feel but I also want to care about my grammar and correct punctuation because it bothers the shit out of me. That was a run-on sentence and also, "effing" is a word because there's no red squiggly line below it. Anyway, putting my OCD aside, last night was just a good night out with a couple of friends. We went to see 'That's My Boy', which by the way was fucking funny as fuck! I actually underestimated this movie but I really don't know why. Happy Madison Productions never fails! And Vanilla Ice himself... Whoof! He is so fucking hot! If you haven't seen it yet, you really have to get your stupid ass to the theater and watch it. And then my friend Jay and I went to the bar at Jackastors and ordered a tall, fat glass of mango and raspberry Icebergs which were actually pretty good coming from a person who isn't fond of alcohol (I've never been drunk before) because it tastes so fucking nasty. Like I don't understand how people can tolerate the taste of this shit of a drink and enjoy being drunk when knowing you're going to have the worst feeling when you wake up. LOL I think that's just me. So anyway, we stayed out until late talking about life and boys and Jay's boy drama and I guess we reached home around 3o'clock  in the morning and now here I am with huge ass fucking headache. I honestly don't know what's going on with me lately? I think because I am single now, I have more time to myself and I get really bored of it and that's why I'm trying new things like trying to get drunk. Oh boy, rereading that was more depressing than it was actually supposed to sound.

Honestly it tasted like beer and a just a bit of raspberry here and there.

I Won't Be a Kate Gosselin (Breakup Rants #1)

Knowing that you put your all in a relationship but it doesn't even matter because the other person eventually just cares about him or herself.
Two, almost 3 years. It's crazy to just trust someone with your heart for 3 years and then just break it without giving a damn. It's been 6 months and I can still feel the hurt. Sometimes I wish he just cheated on me or turned gay so it'd be much easier to get over it, but at the same time I'm kind of glad it didn't go in those directions. I tried to be happy but happiness is just a temporary thing lately. The only thing that makes me content is knowing I have the most amazing people in my life that has helped me through this and I'm so appreciative and blessed but sometimes it's just not enough. 
I wished I hadn't gone through a horrible breakup as well as a long-term relationship but I guess we all got to go through these things, no matter how painful it is. Basically, it was an eye-opener and it had saved me from thinking of marrying this guy and eventually be a fat, divorced mother of 8. Lol! Yes, I know. Shut up.

Another Blog

So here it is. Another blog yet another post saying I will not abandoned this blog like I did with the millions of others I left out there. I don't know what I will write about in here but all I know is it'll just be something out of the blue and on my mind and if you're lucky, something personal. Some things you may not agree upon, others may and if you don't like it I suggest to click on a random link on a page and it will surely lead you to somewhere pleasant. I accept comments either for or against mine but I will most likely not waste my time to reply back because I will respect it (and because I don't give a damn... Nor a fuck). I like to swear (as you could tell a few seconds ago), I like to brag with pictures (even though there is nothing really to brag about) and there will be a fairly big gap between posts (because I am lazy). Anyway, this is just a brief summary of what you may expect from me and this blog and if you are one of the rare few who ended up reading this post... And the next, I thank you for letting me waste a few minutes of your time. Cheers!

x Crystal